Laura's Crazy World

workaholic

Sat, 22 May 2004 04:13:28 GMT

i have been working like crazy..me feet r achy..and ihave been tired out. i went to Tiki Bobs with paul on Tuesday. it was a good time, i ran into my friends Julie Turner, Terrance, Danny Stone, and saw some other people i knew. it was soo weird. i had a good time, we danced the night away. after the club, Paul and i went to LTF and went swimming, then came home and slept in a tent.
Wednesday I went over to Rebecca's after work and she had a little fire. Ed, Dale, Jeff Chen, Kevin, and Jeff Drews were all there, and we all chilled. i was supposed to go to TIME with Lindz, but I was sooooo tired. I ended up going home and sleeping.
Last night Paul and I went to Checkers, and sang some Karaokee, wow it's been awhile. I sang twice and had some Bud Light out of a pitcher. it was a good time. i met some new people and saw this guy Kevin. well today i just went and got rebeccas Bday gift for tomorrow. im going to Canada to party after work with rebecca, ed, paul, kevin, anna, and Dale..it should be intresting.....well im out i need some sleep. i miss all my SVSU group, we all need to hangout too bad i have soooo much work...goodnight..

Good times..with old friends

Sat, 15 May 2004 06:39:05 GMT

Well work is actually fun. I love jade..im glad she works with me..some of the guys there r really creepy. We had good times..my feet weren't hurting me tonight, which was a plus. After work i came home and chilled for a bit. I decided to hangout with Tristam, Eric Richards..i went and picked them up. We went to national, and we called everyone we had in our phones. No one answered. I saw Jacquie up there and we talked about the soccer team at athens. i hope to see a game this week maybe two, depending on my schedule. Then Adarsh and Jon Szerlag came up and we all chilled and talked it up. it was a good time. Adarsh left, and we decided to go up to Ram's Horn and chill there. We caught up, and some great laughs. It was a fun time to hangout with the boys..what can i say I enjoy being the only girl..well it's off for me. IT's REBECCA AND TONI's 19th Birthdays today......so don't forget to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THEM. I have work till 9 today, so come visit me..and we can hangout!

update maniac

Thu, 13 May 2004 09:07:02 GMT

ok...have been on a lot, not really updated. Lets see Richard left for the army..so SAD! i'm gonna be ok, as long as i get a letter. Getting anxious about Australia, and ready to go.
GOt a job finally, SALVATION ARMY!! wahoO! it's a ton of fun, meeting a ton of people, Jade is this cool girl at orientation. We have a lot in common she goes To GVSU, and is going into teaching too. She is cool, i dunno really what im doing there. they never told us, they just kind of gave us a few racks and we had to sort them. I still have to get a shirt, but i neato nametag. It doesn't seem too hard of a job, my feet did hurt after awhile of standing....but i will get over it. i need the money.

Paul and i have been hanging out a lot, but not till the evening. Rebecca, ED, Ed, Paul, Drews and some other people all went and saw Van Helsing..it was all right on Monday. Then i went home and had a nervous breakdown bc richard left, and i didn't get a chance to talk to paul, also my sister was being a bitch to me and of course got into another huuuuuuge fight. SO, i left paul and i ended up going for a walk, and ended up at a gazebo in this park in his subdivision. im not gonna lie, it was rather romantic and cozy and relaxing. we just kind of sat and talked, and then we walked back and i left.

Tuesday i started at the salvation army, and i got out at 9pm...which was nice. I ended up meeting up with Diana at Wendy's for dinner yum yum. She went home, and so did i. THen i made this cake..don't know why just had the urge! I ended up going to Pauls again, and we ate my cake at the gazebo. He brought the milk and plates. it was soo nice and peaceful. Then he gave me PRESENTS!! YAH! it was very very exciting! He wrapped them special, bc he knows how much i love it. THere were differnt layers, and each time i would unwrap something i would ask if i could unwrap the next. He was sneaky, he put it in the box from a clock we got at prom. Then he put a wedge in the box to weigh it down, and some extra filling so it would shake around. i was definately impressed! He was soo creative. He ended up getting me 6 nose rings! they r cool, 3 r black light reactant and then he got 3 twisty ones..i was soo happy! he also got me 2 tounge rings, a clear one and also a crazy pink-orange pompom one it's huge it touches the top of my mouth! I like them all! I went home.....and slept.

Wednesday was my day off! i slept the day away..then lunch with my mom. Then I went to rebeccas house and hungout with Ed till 9. Then i went to JoLee's and hung with the kids and went home. Lindz was there waiting for me....to go to the club TIME..it was awesome.
I ended up going after with diana, and we danced our booty's off! I met this guy KC, and he wants to go out on a few dates. i dunno he is kind of scary.....
After the club, Diana and i went to Ram's horn......ate and her sis called drunk. Thats y im still up, i have work today noon 30 till 9.....so give me a call....or visit me at the Salvation Army! GOODNIGHT...

the VUE

Mon, 10 May 2004 05:03:22 GMT

Ok........so it is official, i went to Deja Vue! Saturday night with Paul! it was actually entertaing. We were judging their performance, and some of the girls really sucked. I think we had more fun in the sex shop it was a lot of fun. I have never really seen that many different toys! it was definately a great experience. Then after the vue we went to Ram's Horn. We got some food, and played some simpson matching games. Then we went back to my house, and played with some funny toys! I almost broke one of them, bc i got one of the batteries stuck! Paul fixed it and made it work. The rain was so bad on the way home though, it was bad. We were hydroplaning the whole way home, it was really scary. paul wasn't very reassuring, he told me we were gonna die! Not very fun. We ended up sleeping in his car and it was exciting. Then he woke up and went home bout 10:30ish. I came into my house and slept till bout 5. Best buy called bout my camera, and it turns out that Im gonna be getting anew one bc they can't fix it. Kind of exciting. my mom came home bout 6ish and we went to dinner at T Birds, and we rented Calendar girls. We didnt' watch it. I came home and talked to Paul. I got mad at him, and he went to the bar. I ended up going to Starbucks with Christian at about 9:30pm and then came home. Paul ended up coming back over to my house and we chilled. We didn't really have a good night.I dunno what im feeling. I feel as if we're spending too much time together but im not sure. He is upset bc i feel that way, but i don't want it to be hard on me when i go to Australia. I really enjoy seeing him and being with him, i just want him i love him to death. i have to give him an answer by Thursday, im scared. Well I ended up crying, bc my buddy Richard is leaving tomorrow. Im on my way out..to go to Ram's Horn to hangout with him, trey chris..so im out ...later

start of the summer

Fri, 07 May 2004 05:50:27 GMT

Well i have been home for a week now...nothing too exciting happening in Troy. I wish i was still up at SVSU..i miss all my friends and being around people 24-7. I have been looking for a job, but haven't found one yet. I'm getting annoyed, bc i need money cash flow. I finalized everything for australia, im just waiting for a reply on my housing, and classes, and i will be all set. I'm a little nervous...but I think i'm ready...getting ready to leave all of this world behind and start a new. Life has been pretty boring. I have been hanging out with Paul a ton, which i'm still undecided if thats the right thing to do. I guess i will see how it ends up. We ended up going to a karaokee bar on Monday, it was a ton of a fun. I had a blast, and actually hungout with his friends. I thought we were going to go back this Thursday, but i guess i was wrong. He ended up hanging out with his friends, and not inviting me to go. I dunno. I have been hanging out with Richard a lot, we saw envy and mean girls. I really didnt' like envy, Mean girls was actually a decent movie. I wouldn't see it again, but i liked seeing it. However, it just wasn't the same without my SVSU girls...sara and toni seeing it with me. I guess i just miss sagnasty. I have been talking to jason, toni, and surprisingly Gary a lot. I have to say is that i was right toni...haha! i talked to sara online a few days ago, she misses me too, it's nice talking to people, but just not the same as seeing them and hanging with them. I hungout with rebecca today, we went rollerblading and had a ball. Ed came over and we all chillled and watched the last friends episode. it was good bonding time, i think im hanging out with Kim tomorrrow. I'm also supposed to be going shopping with Paul, and bringing my camera in to be looked at. Also after 7 im supposed to be hanging out with my girl Rebecca again. So, i guess i'm gonna be a little busy. I know i have to hangout with richard a little more, bc he is leaving pretty soon and i dont' know how i'm gonna deal. I know it won't be great...but i will live. I have to get him a going away gift, i also have to get my mom a mom's day gift, and rebecca and toni birthday gifts. This is a lot of money i don't have.....i'm gonna be creative...well i'm out..i think paul is coming over....and i have to find some pics to give to my boys..so bye everybody! P.S. too bad we're getting all these Thunderstorms, toni and i wanted them while we were at school...geez what a delay!!

WHAT A EXCELLENT DAY

Tue, 27 Apr 2004 04:24:50 GMT

Well today i woke up at noon30 and i did my socology final review guide. Exams are today for me, well 3 of them are. I have soc, econ and then psych. I need to do good on this soc final. Well, i studied for awhile and i talked to Pauly. Then i took a break and watched some tv and made some flashcards. Then talked to Paul and he decides he is going to come out here and see me. That was a plus, so i studied some more and end up falling asleep. I awoke and to my delight Paul was here! So him and i chilled in my room for a long time. it was really nice we actually got along and no big fights. EXCEPT that he broke my toy 2 times!! (HEHE) it's ok...it will be fixed soon enough. Then we ended up going to Burger King for some food. We came back and we had a picnic dinner that he setup in my room. IT was really nice and we snuggled for a little bit lookin at "MAGAZINES" all i have to say is "pick from pink or blue and don't forget the LUBE" ahahaha....yeah! THen he left, and we said byezz and im here now, i should probably be studying...so i think i will try that..i have exams tomorrow...so wish me luck and to everyone else who have finals GOOOD LUCK EVERYONE!

a good night turned bad

Sun, 25 Apr 2004 07:16:20 GMT

Well originally TOni and i were gonna go to Clutch Cargos tonight..but that didnt' work out. Paul came up to visit me. I dunno...it just seems awkard being around him..there is a lot of tension i dont know whats going on. HE watched a movie with katie and katrina, which i was going to do too. but ended up talking to Toni online and Jason came over and we shitted around. Jason and i had a fun time...we laughed and goofed aournd listening to music and talking to Toni. NOw it's like awkard bc Paul and i are sitting and my room..and there is a lot of tension.
Im feeling like bummery bc it's the last weekedn at SVSU and i will be going to Austaralia and won't see half of these people again. i was hoping paul would help cheer me up, but it doen't seem to be working out. I just feel all alone, and sad and don't know what to do with myslef. My room is pretty much cleaned out...and it's depressing...well iguess i will try to talk to Paul..goodnight..

LAST DAY OF CLASS

Fri, 23 Apr 2004 02:27:18 GMT

It's official all i have left is my finals..kind of sad..but relieved. Im chillin with toni and Rachel tonight and who knows who else. NOt sure what were doing yet. All i know it's Travis's BIRTHDAY..SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY! DOnny well he is a dick..does he think by calling me fat i'm going to cry or feel hurt by him? Bc i really don't give a fuck about what people say about me..especially him. At least I know who Iam and what i'm doing with my life. Im not just causing different drama in people's lives, and trying to get attention. So FUck him...all he does his use you to get what he wants and he is out of here...so i'm happy that i don't have to see him after this year..yeaa for australia!! well i gotta ready to go out ...so PEACe

READ THIS!

Mon, 19 Apr 2004 08:02:26 GMT

I found this poem from one of my frineds. This poem really got to me, and it made me think. Tell me how you responded to this, and answer the final question, are you ready?!?

In a few weeks...

A year has past and now we stand on the brink of returning to a world where we are surrounded by the paradox of everything yet nothing being the same. In a few weeks we will reluctantly give our hugs and, fighting the tears, say goodbye to the people who were once just names on a sheet of paper to return to people that we hugged and fought tears to say goodbye to before we ever left. We will leave our best friends to return to our best friends. We will go back to places we came from and go back to the same things we did last summer and every summer before. We will come into town on that same familiar road, and even thought it has been months, it will seem like only yesterday.

As you walk into your old bedroom, every emotion will pass through you as you reflect on the way your life has changed and the person you have become. You suddenly realize that the things that were most important to you a year ago don't seem to matter so much anymore, and the things you hold highest now, no one at home will completely understand. Who will you call first? Where are you going to work? Who will be at the party Saturday night? What has everyone been up to? Who from school will you keep in touch with? How long before you actually start missing people bargaining in without calling or knocking? Who will get breadsticks with you at three in the morning? How long until you adjust to sleeping in a room by yourself, or how long before you realize your three best friends aren't in the bed next to your room?

Then you realize how much things have changed, you realize the hardest part of college is balancing the two completely different worlds you now live in, trying desperately to hold on to everything all the while trying to figure out what you have to leave behind. In the matter of one day's traveling time, we will leave our world of living next door to our best friends, walking across campus to eat, instant messenger, 8:00 classes, and perpetual procrastination to a world that will seem foreign to us despite the fact that we have lived in it for nineteen years.

But it is different now... We now know the meaning of true friendship. We know whom we have kept in touch with over the past year and whom we hold dearest to our hearts. We've left our high school worlds to deal with the real world. We have had our hearts broken, we've fell in love, we've helped our best friends through the toughest times of their lives, something their even best friends at home couldn't be there for. We've stayed up all night just to be there for a friend. We've partied the night away, doing stupid stuff, but we were always there for each other afterwards. There have been times when we've felt so helpless being hours away from home when we know our families or friends needed us most, and there are times when we know we have made a difference.

A few weeks from now we will leave. A few weeks from now we take down our pictures, and pack up our clothes. No more going next door to do nothing for hours on end. We will leave our friends whose random emails and phone calls will bring us to laughter and tears this summer. We will take our memories and dreams and put them away for now, saving them for our return to this world.

A few weeks from now from now we will arrive. A few weeks from now from now we will unpack our bags and have dinner with our families. We will drive over to our best friend's house and do nothing for hours on end. We will return to the same friends whose random emails and phone calls have brought us laughter and tears over the past year. We will unpack old memories and dreams that have been put away for the past year.

A few weeks from now we will dig deep inside to find the strength and conviction to adjust to change and still keep each other close. And somehow, in someway, we will find our place between these two worlds.

In a few weeks.... are you ready?

Beautiful day sunday was

Mon, 19 Apr 2004 06:56:42 GMT

WEll sunday was beautiful, the weather was in the 80's who couldn't ask for a better day. Toni, Sara and I chilled outside. THen Jason andGary came out and we played some Football. it was nice, but the sun to always be in my eyes. oh well it was worth it.
My mom came up for dinner and i went to ponderosa. IT's official im going to australia my ticket is paid for..I'm sooo happy!
i came back, and i shiited around some with toni, sara,Gordo, chris and Gary. Then sara, toni and i grabbed Chris's football and went and threw it around. Stacy and Ryan came along and they threw. TOniand Sara and i decided to go rollerblading, it was soo nice still! we came back,and thought it would be fun if we could sleep outside, however Clayton told us we couldn't! that really sucked. Well we ended up going rollerblading again and it was fun. We came back and looked at the pics of the bball hangout. THen we chilled with gary, chris, katie,katrina and sara. we watched some tv and talked. then i threw water at gary and he left! So i want to say..Gary I am sorry for throwing water at you! please accept my apology! well i came back to find out that chris fucked with my puter and set off the settings...i was a lil pissed. So, i ended up getting it fixed and here i am typing away.
im a lil mad at paul, he called me just to say goodnight! wtf!?!! i wanted to talk to him and tell him bout my day, but no he calls me at 2! it made me mad. i hungup on him, which i know he hates, but he knows i hate when i can't talk to him. i know he has school, but i just don't see y he called me to just say goodnight. AHH! well i guess..we will see if i talk to him! it is soo annoying that he doesn't have a cell phone, bc i can't talk to him whenever i want..I HATE IT! well im off to bed..good night

Good TIME ON SATURDAY

Mon, 19 Apr 2004 06:49:39 GMT

Well finally waking up at 4 something, on saturday...i was awake kind of. Sara and i ended up going to Forte's hip hop showcase. which was sweet, there was some great dancers. IT kind of dragged on, and we were sleepy still. Well we had fun,and left and went to walmart. I got my pics back from easter and that was cute, and put in more from relay for life. Sara and i ended up renting 2 movies and getting McDonalds yummy. we came back, and watched my Boss's daughter, with toni and Jason. We were all so slap happy when we layed down,that we saw the beginning 3 times before actually watching it. So, paul decides to come up again. Which made me happy, he ends up getting here at 12:40. I was extremely tired...or so i thought.
I tried to lay in bed, it didn't work. I started cleaning my room, and then Gary came in at like 2am. We all decide to go play some basketball. it was definately a good time! Toni, sara, and i were soo ghetto! thepics our totally awesome! Ilove them! WE had fun, and i got to know Gary a lil better! Chris and Ryan were there too! Well we all chilled till bout 4:30 then came back to the dorms. I took a shower bc i was soo freaking cold. I ended up going to bed about 6:30am. Paul left this morning at 11 or something.

Relay for life

Mon, 19 Apr 2004 06:44:19 GMT

I MADE IT! I STAYED UP FOR 12 HOURS WITH SARA! WAHOO FOR RELAY FOR LIFE. it was actually a ton of fun. THere was a ton of food, drinks and fun. We got our hands massaged and paraffin wax, there was rock climbing, jumpy thing, performances,crafts and Karaokee. it was definately a great cause and a great time. THe boys from B house definately loosened up with singing. it was cute. the c6 chicas we sang We go toether from Grease..it was a good time. Tracy from the C store sang with us also. sara, tracy and i sang I hope you dance also. that was an emotional time. I found out a lot about tracy, and i really cherish her and see her as a very strong person that i admire. The walk was very emotional and sad to hear about the survivors stories and to hear all the people who have died. it's great that we raised over $20,000. I'm proud to say that i was a part of the walk for relay at SVSU!

PIE PARTAY!

Mon, 19 Apr 2004 06:40:02 GMT

Thursday, i had my final intermaural soccer game. we lost..oh well. i got body slammed into the ground by the goalkeeper. My nose felt like it was broken, i also ended up with burn-cut on my elbow and all along my right leg. OH well im a survivor. We lost only 1 to 0 so it wasn't too bad.
After the game i was feeling a little ouchy, I walked back with DOnny and Pauly came up. So, i was happy to see him. i chilled with him for a lil bit, bc there were soo many people in my room. i ended up takin a shower, and getting ready. Paul, me and Katrina end up going to the party at 1. IT was a blast, even though we got there later. I talked and mingled with a ton of people. I also finished about a half of a pint of Bacardi Limon on my own. WAHOO GO ME! well, i was pretty trashed, but i talked with a ton of people that i haven't see for awhile. it was a good time. THen i wanted to leave, but Paul couldn't leave bc he had been drinking and was pretty loopy. I was upset so i talked with tony. He was going to give me a ride home, but paul got pissy with me. HE ends up throwing a bottle full of soda and alc mix at a tree, hits, and it explodes and gets on my Katrina and Ashly. Ashly got mad, and I thought was gonna kill Paul. Paul ran, and like disappeared.About this time, the party pretty much ended. We wanted to leave, but Paul was no where to be found..so i was like upset and couldn't find him. Idon't know what his deal was. OH well...i guess i was acting dumb. But hey i really didnt' feel like going bc i was sleepy. IT was good time.
Well, we came back, and paul ends up talking and hanging out wiht Katrina. Whats up with that? i thought he was up here to see me. guess nOT! i was pissy, i went to B2 and told sara, toni, Gordo, Katie, and chris about the night. I came back to the room and i was mad. i went in my room, and yelled for paul to come in and he didn't. so it angered me more. i dunno...i was mad. so he ends up trying to puke and i fall asleep. i wake up at 6something in the morning and see paul is not in the room with me. he ended up sleeping on thecouch. i woke him up and we snuggled it was better. he stayed during the day for awhile.
he realized he had lost his phone. someone had called me on it, but no one answered when i called back. I dunno...we didn't end up finding it. he had left it at the party. if anyone knows anything about a verizon phone..they found with a set of keys left at the Pie party...it would be sweet if u could let me know who to contact about it..thanks

POEM

Thu, 15 Apr 2004 06:09:47 GMT

This is a poem a wrote to Paul..tell me what you all think!

WHEN

When I think of you
my heart pitter-patters,
sometmie it even skips a beat.

When I hear your sweet voice
it makes me smile,
it makes my life all come together.

When I get to be in your arms,
all my probles go away.
All I am aware of is
our two hearts beating as one.

When we kiss,
the world and time stops for a moment,
and all I feel
is your tender lips against mine.

When we spend time together
it's important to me
this is because I know you care for me.

*not included in the poem: I know i know this is a crappy corny poem..BUT HEY it's my first one i have written for someone else, so give me a break ok.

Pamper yourself night

Thu, 15 Apr 2004 06:04:45 GMT

Well today was a nice relaxed day. I ended a conversation with Paul on a negative note. Then went to bed. Woke up and did my homework, which was just my english. I finished that and decided to go rollerblading. Toni, Sara and I went rollerblading it was a great time. On the way we passed Jason, Chris and Gary they were running. On our way, Toni didn't know we were turning and landed in the grass...well she didn't fall but it was funny. I turned around to laugh at her and I almost fell on my ass. It was excellent. Two times it sounded like there was something stuck in Toni's skate, one time it was the second it wasn't. It was such a beautiful i loved being outside. it turns out tomorrow i'm playing Clayton's team at 10pm. i'm not too excited about that, however Paul might come and watch so that might be exciting. Then we came back, i took a shower and chilled. I ended up going to this pamper yourself night in the multipurpose room, that was pretty exciting. I got a scalp massage, my hair done and a nice back rub. OMG, my hair turned out horrible, it is sooo funny! I dont know what was up with the lady doing it, but it was BAAD! i have pics so if ur intrested in seeing them let me know. It turned out to be a fun night. Mary Kay might be coming to our room to do a facial which will be exciting! I came back here with Sara and Toni and we relaxed and looked thru the Mary Kay catalog to figure out what to get with our $5 gift certificate. Today has definately been a better one for me..well thats all I have a long day...so goodnight to all!

HAPPY EASTER

Mon, 12 Apr 2004 05:53:22 GMT

I'm waiting for Paul to come over....yeah he isn't here yet..i dunno..it's been weird with him lately. he is supposed to come over and watch a movie...OH wait he is here!Well, Happy Easter to all. TOday was pretty uneventful. i woke up and went to brunch with my mom, michael, and Granny. We went to Joe's crap shack. It was yummy! Then we came home, hoping Dairy Queen was open, sadly it wasn't. Then I came back home, and slept till like 8. Adarsh called me to inform me of a get together for the night, but i didnt' feel like drinking. i ended up calling diana and we hungout for awhile. We watched Freaky Friday and she played her 3 new games. Then i was walking down the stairs and missed a step and i spilled pizza sauce on her carpet and her wall. I felt soo bad, we cleaned it up. Then we went back upstairs and talked. i called tristam and talked to him for a bit, then ended up leaving. That leaves me to where i started. Paul and I are watching King Pin....hmm intresting. i have been soo peculiar lately with him. When I come home all i really do is hangout with him. We chill, I love it....but i don't know if t's necessary a good thing. OH well...well he is leaving pretty soon.....so i guess i should go. Goodnight to all!

a date turned into an event

Mon, 12 Apr 2004 04:41:19 GMT

Well yesterday Paul and i ended up going on our date. The date started out wonderful, he was a total gentlemen, he opened the car door and everything. It was fun, we went to the movies first and we saw The whole 10 yards, which was funny. I gave him the poem that I wrote him, and he liked it while we were in the parking lot of the movie theater. I guess he really liked it, which was a plus. Then we went to Larco's and met up with Rebecca and Ed, which was fun. I got a Filet, and it came with soup and pasta. I kind of got confused and walked right past the bathroom. Of course Ed had to make fun of me, but oh well.I felt like Rebecca and I were in our own convo and then paul and Ed. IT was a good time, we are hopin to all go down to Cedar Point this summer together, i think it will be fun if it works out before I leave. While we were at Larcos paul had a glass of wine, while we were walking out I made a funny comment about i don't think he could drive because he was tipsy (he really wasnt')and when we got into the car ironically the song was on the radio! After Larco's we all went over to Rebecca's and i showed her my bridesmaid dress which she LOVED...i like it too..hehe. WE chilled till bout 11ish and then Paul drove me home. This is where our trouble started. I got out and brought my dress into my house. i came back, and Paul was on my phone....OK! A great way to end the date! Well, i went inside and chilled with my mom and Michael. She took a picture of me, which was good. Then they went to bed, and FINALLY paul decides to come in and join me. this was bout 11:50...it tells me i'm leaving at midnight.At this point, i wasn't too happy with him. WE end up getting a total of 2 PICTURES of us all dressed up..kind of disappointed. Then we kind of chilled. We started talking about our "date" and he decides to call an event, which made me rather upset. SO, he ends up leaving, and i cry. YEAH! so then he comes back, and chills for awhile and then leaves. I dunno, if the "date" or "EVENT" ended well.

blahh

Thu, 08 Apr 2004 03:21:27 GMT

can you all tell im talking to paul? im sooooo EMOTIONAL!! my ups and downs..i just don't know what to do? y do i like this boy so much? y?!? Y?!?! Y?!!? well i still miss him and HEART him, yes only him at the moment. wow, only one boy

don't

Thu, 08 Apr 2004 03:19:13 GMT

I MISS PAUL SOOOOOO MUCH! DON"T DO THINGS BC THE PRINCESS TELL U, JUST DO IT IF YOU WANT TO. I CAN'T WAIT TILL SATURDAY............I GET TO SEE PAULY! HE MAKES ME HAPPY FOR THE MOST PART!

clean up

Thu, 08 Apr 2004 02:50:54 GMT

so today i found out that i leave for australia july 7! wow, thats only 3 months from now. didn't know it was that soon. well im excited, nervous and kind of overwhelmed. I talkd to Jason coleman last night, which was a plus. we got to catch up sorry i didn't get to talk that long. So yeah last night tipsy had our final game and we won! i scored it was soo awesome! I scored the sweetest goal it was a bounce,i flicked it over the goalie and headed it in! i was like shit how did that happen?!?! i couldn't do it again if my life depended on it! Then i got the best surprise ever!!!!!!!! Paul came up and visited me and i didn't know! he ended up making up a story and called me back and told me to let him in! i was like OMG...so excited and he ended up being really sneeky about it! so im proud of him! IN the morning he didn't go to work, he slept in and woke up late. OH SORRY...stayed up to late. it was an amazing night just to be able to lay next to him and not have to worry about anything except each other. then today i woke up and blah..my room is so bare. but it was an excellent day out..it was soo warm and nice! then i got my letter from rob it was soo cute..actually amazing! i loved it..thanks robby! he makes me soo happy, not as much as paul but close. we have health and safeties tomorrow, and of course sara and i did the cleaning. toni had practice and a billion things to do so thats understanding. BUT THERE IS A CERTAIN SOMEONE WHO DOES NOTHING AND PISSES ME OFF! oh well, we met this boy kevin and he was a cutie, one of travis's friends.
I cleaned out the rest of my room, so the rooms are totally bare, and im ready to move out. im not really ready but it's gonna have to do, only a few more weeks. which is sad, but im not thinkin bout it. im talking to paul on the phone...well kind of, he keeps askin me quesions and i don't answer..ooops sorry baby! him and i are in a weird friendship if thats what we call it. i dunno...all i know is that we are supposed to go to dinner and i have to dress so im pumped and anxious. i dunno.. i have all this emotion but i don't want to say it to him, bc i don't want him to think im a nut. even though i know he already thinks im a nut. but i gg talk to him feel bad. i also got to talk to my BFF rebecca so that was goood...soo later.....

long time....

Mon, 05 Apr 2004 02:23:05 GMT

Well, i haven't really updated this..there isn't much to say. i came home this weekend once again. i dunno something is wrong with me all i do is sleep and sleep and sleep. it's not a healthy thing. oh well, maybe i will get checked for mono, but let me tell you if i have mono i know at least one other person who is at HIgh for having it also. HEHe. i hungout with paul once again this weekend. we have been getting really close, im not sure if thats a plus orminus in my life. i will look at it as being positive. on friday i came home and i got my brides maid dress, it is really pretty it's blue and green. im excited for my sis's wedding. on may 2nd i have her bacholorette party, and then she gets married on july 2nd which is also pauly's bday. so i won't be able to be with paul on his bday. Oh well it's ok. saturday i went to this meeting about australia, im so excited about going. i might end up staying down there for an entire year! i think that would be soo amazing, a little scary when i get back. im not sure, im gonna go for half the year, and then see if i like it. if i do i will extend my visit. if i do stay, it will be exciting bc jen and toni would be comin down and i could see them. i would also be able to sight see more and it would be a full culture effect. im going back to sagnasty tomorrow, and im planning on decorating eggs. on wednesday im coming back totroy with Toni bc of her big interview and then going back to svsu.then my mom is comin up thursday and watchin my game and taking me home once again. well i have hw to do so thats all for the day.......bye

WOW

Wed, 31 Mar 2004 05:28:19 GMT

well today i didn't wake up for my first two classes, oh well. i ended up stayin up talkin to my baby boy robby on the phone till like 3:30am. then i tried to sleep but was up with this coughing. i went to english where ijust chilled. came back went to an extra credit thingy, which was so boring and stupid for sociology. then came back here ate some salsa and poured it on my jeans and the floor. WOW im a winner. Then went to psych had a test, think and i hope i did good on it. came back went to dinner with toni. then i ended up goin back to class late to watch the rest of one who flew over the Cuckoos nest. wow thats a messed up movie! it was good though, humerous and compassionate.
i came back here after and chilled and relaxed. Found out some info about my mom that i didn't know. wow, i don't know it was hard on me. i was talkin to paul and stuff...i dunno it didn't really help. so on my way to my soccer game i called my BFF rebecca and talked to her. i was a lil more relaxed, by game time. paul called me back and i had to go and play.
Well we didn't do so bad only 2 to 0 tonight. GO TIPSY! we actually did a lot better, i was satisfied. Then i came back here talking to paul, and ended up goin to our House meeting. we discussed Relay for LIFe...i wanna get some money for that..so anyone who wants to donate contact me!!
After the meeting talked to paul again! wow what a surprise. didn't really talk, more argued...but then again thats what i do start fights. WHATEVEr..so im now in a crappy mode and have so much shit to do for Thursday. I dunno, im sick of my emotions im about ready to give up on guys...for serious! im just going to not do anything with anyone and try to keep my feelings out of sight. then i won't get them toyed with or hurt. thats my best option...well im out....

monday monday

Tue, 30 Mar 2004 07:08:06 GMT

Today was an average monday. i woke up late, packed up my stuff to go back with. then i went and got my legs waxed, WOW that really hurt this time. then i came home and left with my mom and michael back to the sagnasty. we had dinner at Yummy Applebees. then back into my dorm. So funny, travis was talking about my mom and how she fucked herself in the ass to have me (inside joke) and my mom was standing outside and heard him. it was soo funny i was like travis my mom is right here. and his face explained it all...it was sooo hilarious. i was soo excited my plant started to grow! it's the first thing that has grown. im sooo excited! then i did some homework. then my buddy jay came up to our room! soo happy to see him haven't seen him in years, well at least thats what it seems. then we went to the Cstore with "fruit ofthe loom" aka travis. we got some munchies talked to Tim then back to my room. i did some hw, and i talked to my best friend Rebecca. we had some catching up to do about this weekend. then toni came back with jen from shopping! she bought a sweet business suit! it looks soo snazy...black wiht pink stripes. hot girl! i found out that she will be working right in town this summer! so iget to see her, hopefully a little more! then my baby boy Ashley came up and we studied like mad for our psych test tomorrow! we both hope to do well. we have another study date tomorrow! all i have to say is im stuck in the oral stage..hehe~! well i tried to call paul back, but it didn't work. itwas weird i called him and he must have pushedthe wrong button bc he pushed talkand i was talkin, but no response. He did it 2 times ina row, then i finally left him a message. so here i am now, typing away and talkin to lindz, rob, and alex online. random conversations for the night..i dunno! well this week should be fun..i guess we will see. im waiting for Toni to get out of the shower.......so thats all for today

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what a great ending

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 08:16:09 GMT

well this weekend ended awesome. i got to hangout with tristam, chris, and richard. I went and picked up everyone up, and then we went to Wendy's for some grub. then we left and we went bowling. at bowling i met two of their friends brent and someone else can't remember. then diana and simona came up there and we chilled a little longer. then i dropped them back at their home. i talked to rich for a little bit and he made me sad, he is leaving may 11th to go to the army. i dunno what im gonna do. i'm really upset. on top of that he was talking all about how he is going to die and stuff. it just made me really sad. I dunno i don't like humor with death it creeps me out especially about people i care about! i have known rich Forever! we have grown up together since grade schoool, and it's sad that we're gonna be apart. i'm gonna try and see and hangout with him as much as possibly can. on a happier note this saturday is my buddy CHRIS DARRYL POLLARD's 19th birthday! i have to make sure to call him and wish him a good one.
After i dropped them all off i came home talked to Paul, and i decided to go there. i picked up the movie Selena at blockbuster and i was on my way. we ended up chillin...AND i actually got my hw done! go figure. then after the movie we chilled and cuddled for a little bit, and "talked" then i just got home and was talking to him. i dunno i still think it's kind of weird with the whole Karissa thing..he gaveme like 10 different reasons y he didn't answer his phone when she called. oh well whatever.